Hi daisies. Sorry for being away for so long. I've been lazy. I apologise from the bottom of my heart. Truly sorry. Let's just pretend that they are few people that read this blog of mine , shall we? haha okay.
I am okay. I am feeling good about myself after everything umie said in our convo yesterday morning. People are jealous that is why they do the talking. School has been hectic. With the so called-problems with girlfriends there, with studies and everything. But Alhamdulillah everything is under control. I do not want to talk about the girlfriends bcs i dont think its worth talking about. If they really are my friends, they would have tegur my wrong-doing instead of spreading my bad attitude to others. That is just unacceptable. So yeah, jealousy people.
Speaking of jealousy, there is this one guy that gets jealous everytime guys talk to me or smile at me or even just give me a glanced.He gets jealous easily bcs he told me that he's afraid i might fall for another guy rather than staying with him forever. He is my schoolmate. I mean more than a schoolmate. My bestfriend. My boyfriend. The replacement of Ajim he is. I still can hear people buzzing around about me and him but idc cs honestly i have never disturbed their life. I am living my life but ofcourse i do know the limits.
Yes true, i was never interested of knowing him in the first place. In my mind, he was just another guy that flirts around with girls. I never knew he was this serious about knowing me. He is in my batch. Junior as well as i am myself. So yea no one cares since i'm dating a junior. hehehe. He is a friend to my girlfriends.
So here i am telling everyone that i want him in the future. Its okay if he isnt mine now but i want him in the future. I just love the feeling of being wanted by him. I just love that he treats me gently. I just love that i can talk to him like a bestfriend. I love the feeling of being with him now. Not as a girlfriend-boyfriend feeling. It is more to i-can-tell-you-everything-even-my-deepest-secret-bcs-i-can-trust-you feelings.
Oh and we are not promising each other anything or is it just me ? I am just going to enjoy the present. It is fine if we don't talk anymore after this but atleast i got the chance to know him once. So.... I now shall pen down and start packing since im leaving to hostel at 4 pm. Takecare everyone and selamat berpuasa xx
love, Laila.
