the life there

It's almost a month since the last time i updated this. You know, i've been busy. With life, school, asrama and other stuff. I've been home a week ago and will be going back to asrama within few hours from now.

Life in asrama is good. The seniors are really friendly. I mean, c'mon not all of them but my dorm's seniors are. The first week i was there, i cried myself to sleep. 2 days in a row. It's like more to missing the boyfriend than the family. I know i'm a bad gurl. Even if it's good there, i still have the feeling to go back to my old sch. The schedule are pack.

We sleep at 12 and have to wake up at 5 to run for the bathroom. When the clock strikes at 7 am, we have to clear the hostel area then we can only go back into our dorm at 4.30. Really a long day. At night, we have prep then blablabla. Plus, the foods there are all tasteless. OMG if only i could bring my mom there mhmmm but i still eat a lot. what is wrong with me idk.. So enough with asrama life.

Ohhh btw, yesterday i went to meet my sayang. At the hospital. With umie and my friends. Yes! my mom met his parents. Just chit-chatting and all. I just love his baby sister. Geram :3 Oh he got admitted bcs of the bacteria infection kot. Usus dia problem or something and had an operation. But now, alhamdulillah he's getting better.

I am better stop now. good day lovelies! Takecare and be good xx

love, laila

it starts all over again

It's basically 11.18 pm in 31st Dec 2011. yes true! Today is the last day of 2011. I am so gonna miss everything that happen in 2011. This year has brought a lot of good memories to me. Not only that, i've also have gone through bad moments this year. It's no longer bad things to me, in fact all that have became my lesson. I've learned my lesson.

Withing an hour we all are going to live in a new year, 2012. I really hope this new year gonna be much more better than 2011. I mean no, year is still year. I mean me, i pray for the best. To be a better person for everybody. It aint that hard but it takes alot of courage to do that. I realize that. So, i have listed out my new year resolution and i really hope that i could do wtv i wish for, be the person i wanna be and whatsoever but... i dont think its really necessary to publish it in here soo yeahh.

Ohh and another thing, i'm going to asrama on Jan 9th. I've decided to leave everything behind and study there. Leave my family, my friends, my schmates and also my most favourite person, my boyfriend. Sob sob i know, i'm sad too but it's just for 2 years then everything gonna be back to normal, Insyaallah. I'm going to Teknik but i'm still waiting for letter from Mara cs i really wanna go to mrsm that bad. It's really sad to know that i only have 4/3 days before going to new school. I am so going to miss my classmates and the girls.

So that is all i guess. And also happy 2012 guys! be good and be safe. Starts your new year with bismillahirahmanirahim. Takecare xx

love, laila.

The results

I always have trouble with what to write to start an update. is it with hello ? or with an apology ? or maybe with telling you how wonderful my life has been ? yes, i know. i sucks but who the heck cares anyway ? Well, hello to the hommies and strangers. I apoligize for being such a lazy ass. hehehe :3

I've been busy. Busy with my life. I've turned into a housewife this holiday or should i called myself a "bibik" ? cs i really am busy sweeping the floor, cleaning the mess in the house, washing the dishes and other stuff. Other than that, this holiday treats me well. Except for the fact that i've been so anxious and nervous waiting for the results to come out. It has been a month that fulls with curiousity and such. I prayed for the goods. I want to be proud and i want to make my parents proud.

And alhamdulillah, He listens to me. I know i've done my best. My very best. I think, i've put more effort than everyone else did. Ayah and umie also have tried given their best for my success. Alhamdulillah, i got straight A's but sadly i didnt manage to get up to the stage cs i reached sch a bit late. All thanks to maksu cs she's the one who accompanied me there. I was fuqin nervous and i hit the door.

I thanked Allah for everything He has given me. Alhamdulillah. Also thanks to the teacher, the friends, the classmates, the seniors and semua semua. I'm so blessed :) so i shall off now. Looking forward to a good start for a new year. Takecare everyone xx

love, laila.

as me, speaks for myself

wheresoever you go, go with all your heart - conficius

have you ever felt like giving up on life ? well, i have. not once but few times. I aint giving up on life exactly but with the situation. I feel like freezing the time. so that i wouldn't have to make a stupid decision. so that i could have the time to think and make a wise decision. true, people often make mistakes but when it's repeated several time, that is not mistake that is just their choice.

This exact time, i feel like doing the same thing. freeze the time. frankly speaking, i usually don't express what i really feel. but now i have reached the point where everything he does annoys me to the max. but i love him. this is pathetic, telling people what i feel instead of telling him directly. i love him so much. we used to say everything to each other and all but since umie told me not to over do things, especially things like this. i've stopped. i started to have doubts.

i tried not to promise anything since ever. i dislike letting people down. i want to be good. i tried to be and still trying. i make a baby steps. it is so impossible to do things drastically. i once tried to get away from him for like days but i failed. i have to atleast text him and ask about things even if it's like short replies but we still gonna text each other. yeah things are complicated than ever now.

but whatever it is, i love him. and i love my parents too. imma listen to what they've told me about stuff like this. be friend with everybody. i have a long way to go so don't commit myself into something that i aint sure. ofcourse, everybody do has plans but why we plan things that will only happen 7 or 8 years from now ? banyak benda will happen in that 7 8 years, who knows kan. so i have many choices and i just have to wait for the right time to seriously think about things like this.

this is me speaking up for myself. when i re-think about it. it's true. don't busy yourself with your relationship that yourself are not sure with. studies, get good grades, get into universities, have your own money < well that time is the most suitable time for you to find your soulmates. right ? well, you gotta ask that to yourself.

sharing is caring so this is just something tht i'd like to share. ohh and btw, happy holidays :)

love,laila.

life as what we knew it

Hi Assalamualaikum. Hello everyone ! it almost a month I didn't update this blog aite ? Pardon me for that. I aint busy at all in fact I have so much of free time after PMR. It just I haven't been really online this thing for a long period. Just accept the fact that I'm a lazybump alright ? okay at last, I admit it huehuehue ^^ lol no...

What did I do after PMR ? well, mhmm nothing. yeah totally nothing. oh and btw, remember I told ya earlier about the things-to-do-after-PMR ? I wanted to make a list of it aint I ? nope I didnt list it out at all. I so hate myself right now bcs everything doesnt go the way I wanted it to be but yeah that is what life looks. It doesnt always go as we have planned nor happened like what we have wanted. But after all, I have to admit that i just cannot hate myself for too long cs I am awesome. Always and forever :P hahaha okay nah i kid.

How was school after PMR? school was okay. I go to sch when i feel like doing so or skip when the rate of my laziness reach it max level. We have lists of activities to do at school. We do different activites everyday. So this week is sports week. Us, girls play netball while the boys gonna go with football. The school looks even attrative now.... lol no... its bcs the activites we having at sch.

Now everything seems so perfect. And what made me so happy is that umie now doesnt really care if I aint going to sch. She doesnt nags all day anymore and my life seems happier that way. lol who doesnt kan. My friends ? They are all doing great. My boyfriend ? Forever going to be my most favourite handsome guy hahaha. He says we have to at least meet once a week so after PMR ni saya jadi sangat miskin T_T Hoping that November going to treat us well. Less fight, loved more. That is all i want from him.

So i think i shall stop now. This post is like hell long of a post. Takecare loveliess xx

love, laila.

memories won't fade

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Happy moments last forever. It doesn't fade away. It stays forever in your heart and mind. It's the same happen to me. I really hope all the good memories when I am with my friends stay forever in my heart.

So, yesterday is one of the day I hope I won't forget. Chud, Robi, Sara, Hazim and I went to KLCC. Well obviously the PMR is over so just thought that we could have fun sekejap. I got to meet my love there! :D We watched movie. I haven't done that in quite some time. It was good when eating popcorn while you enjoying the movie. It totally is a bliss.

Yes I've got to meet him there. I was so happy cs I couldn't resist that act I miss him so much. I just thought that I needed to see his smile, hear his super-super annoying voice and talk about random things with him. Yesterday was great cs I seldom get to see him and walk with him. Yes, true ! I feel like smiling from the second I woke up this morning.

I am so happy but mhm I miss him already. We took pictures and I think I am just being me whenever I am with him. Just me. I guess this is what it feels like when you are so inlove with someone ey ? You just be yourself when you're with him and you can have the conversation about random things and you can take silly pictures with him without worrying about your looks ? I guess yea.

Well I guess imma stop here now ;) Oh btw, I went to sch today and it was sucks. School was boring today but yes ! sch has organised banyak activites starting from tomorrow so hopefully tak boring mcm today.

Goodnight and tkcare lovelies xoxo

love, Laila.